You know those songs that you listen to just once and then they're stuck in your head for the rest of the day, even when you're in middle of a very important task? Yea. So I'm going through that at the moment. I don't particularly enjoy listening to the songs that are "in trend" but I'm so addicted to "Fireflies," by Owl City....it is such a good song!The one line that really hits home with me is:To ten million fireflies,
I'm weird cause I hate goodbye,I got misty eyes as they said farewell.
But I'll know where several are,
If my dreams get real bizarre,
Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar.
There's too much to say about these few lines, and I could analyze them forever, but I will keep it short.
The line about goodbyes...I REALLY HATE GOODBYES! One reason I try not to get too close to people is because I know that eventually, we're going to grow apart, either because of unexpected, unfortunate circumstances, or simply because it's human nature to have a relationship wither away. And this makes me so sad.
If I open up to people, I will instantly feel an attachment to that person...I will feel like this person and I share a special bond, an exclusive connection. But when this person does not reciprocate these same feelings to me, I just feel so broken down. And I don't even mean this in a romantic sense, even with pure friendship. In the end, we have to say our farewells....
Recently, I started to get kind of close to somebody...I thought this would be an everlasting friendship...but in the end, I was ditched! I mean, I understand why, this person got involved in a romantic relationship...and love blinds a person, and the rest of the world is forgotten...but it's still so damn painful! I LEARNED MY LESSON! My philosophy is a good one...just don't reveal your heart to others [blogging excluded since nobody knows me here anyways, and nobody actually reads this ^_^]. And when you put up walls around your heart, you're safe, and people may try to attack you, but it won't work. They will fail.
Hey, perhaps this is why people say I've got an "ice cold heart"...hmm...
